The Journey Through Emptiness
Let me attempt to reduce some of my experiences to words, with the hope that You will meditate consistently until the issues below are revealed to You by Your Own Essence. I have mentioned that the Reason for Coming into Being is ‘Full-Joyment’ of Live or Love or Law. Now ‘why are we in so much pain, whether we have someone to Love or not? Lack of self-satisfaction in Life and Love; I do agree with the Priestesses, is due to lack of Fullness, hence we move around amazingly filled with Emptiness.
It is a sense of loss, deficiency and confusion. We go through Life with heavy hearts and lack that Natural Awareness as if we have lost our Consciousness. We become the Living Dead, i.e. as if the essential part of us has been taken away, removed, gone or it is not fulfilling our needs. Both helplessness and hopelessness become our best unwanted friends. Anger, anxiety, disappointment and irritability simply become extended family members that continue to reduce our self-esteem and quality of Life in us. Depression sometimes sets in and we do not value ourselves because something worthy is gone; so we see no reason to Live and Love, give or share.
Our essential nature is Consciousness. However, when we enter into so-called ‘Relationships’, we give up this sense of Self to the other. We compromise it due to fear of loss, and when the ‘ship’ capsises; something of great importance gets lost. The immediate reaction is a sense of need, and unknown to us is a sense of demand. We become filled with unending expectations to ‘Fullfill’
the emptiness hoping to experience a sense of Bliss. Hey! Simply stay peaceful in Your Emptiness and learn!
The Figment of ‘Relationship Bondage’
When we are unfulfilled, we ascribe value; due to poor judgment; to things, objects and events; as if these had qualities of deep inner joy for us. In this manner we voluntarily cheat ourselves and everyone who believes in such life fully filled with holes. A demand-driven and a need-to-have or an expectation so-called based relationship is the best way to Fall in and out of the same relationship, broken hearted. At their best, relationships are devoid of Love, Life and Natural Law as they are man and woman-made, a dream-state that turns out to be our worst nightmare.
The presence of expectations, needs, judgments, desires and hopes while one is unaware of these, is a clear indication of one who is preoccupied by a fleeting utopia. Instead of Living in the Now, conscious of the ‘Nowness’ of Love and Loving, we imprison ourselves in something external, only existing in our hopeful minds and prospects of the ever-absent and rudderless relation ‘ship’. On board this ‘ship’, we suffer mental anguish and spiritual agony. Harassed by empty deep holes within, we stay hopeful that the ship will bring tranqulising ecstasy. The tranqualiser is the other person and what they are offering, i.e. the need and demand to be appreciated, the hopes to be given something that will make us happy. We wrongfully judge that the thing that makes us feel fulfilled in the other person is actually a part of us. Unconsciously, we mis-identify the things that contribute towards our pleasure as us. It is here that the dead ‘ship’ of ownership, selfishness, greed, selfishness, control, obsession and possessiveness are born. We then move from pain to excitement to pain, and pride ourselves insuch ‘fear-tionships’. Can You relate to suchaformofa Loveless relationship?
© Ǻ Aunkh Khem S-Maã
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